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One thing about having a blog is my mom reads it. That's not necessarily a bad thing, but this time she had my dad read it as well and now I am not allowed to sleep over at Chelsea's house, which I don't mind so much. What I do mind is that even though the things Michelle was laughing at happened a year or two ago, my dad says he doesn't trust me as much anymore. I don't really get that, my mom told me that she has seen a change in me ever since I came back from Pennsylvania and they both know I haven't done anything recently over at the Lalondes but dad says he still doesn't trust me.

My awesome littlest brother Sam, and this is probably the best picture I have gotten of him, and then Tim all happy about brushing his teeth, now I just need John....but I don't have a normal one...just ones were he looks silly.

My laptop was taken away for a few days because I downloaded something onto my mom's computer without asking. I really am not smart sometimes, its like a no duh to ask to do something like that, especially when dad keeps telling me to ask and I keep letting it slip my mind. But yea he took it for two days and I discovered that I would prefer him to not take it again.

I started the study of Philippians today that I am doing for "school" and I think I have read the first chapter 5 times now making sure I have all the I's, my's and me's highlighted. I am not sure why I have to highlight them but that's what I have been instructed to do. Maybe its a way to get me to read it over and over and get it to really stick. Besides all the highlighting, its been an interesting and beneficial study and its only been one day.

I washed the floor in my room but it still has a rather strong odor from all the waterings Tomo gave it..sigh...now what? I'll just spray lysol or fabreeze all over it to mask the ammonia smell but that stuff causes headaches and I have several fish tanks that don't need lysoled. Maybe I will blow up the floor and replace it with wood that I don't have.

It is impossible to live a normal life in my room, let alone sleep, when the airater for the fish tank is making that annoying vibrating noise, it seems the noise gets louder the longer you leave it vibrating and I am seriously going to kill it if it doesn't stop.

One of Cupcake's kittens, the one that I like and named Spud, got dunked in gasoline today and is stumbling around like she is drunk or something, I am hoping she didn't ingest any of it. And I came into my room and found a couple of kittens happily chewing up the dog food bag and eating any food that spilled out.

My mom told us last night that we could sleep in the next morning but since I have been getting up in between 6:30 and 7 for so long, sleeping in was impossible.

I have been working on my fish tanks all this week, its like one of those passing fads where today its very interesting and tomorrow I don't care at all. I started the terrarium first, and after three tries to stop the water half from leaking into the dirt half I decided to think it out better and go slower and now it doesn't leak. Then I did the pond tank and got about 30 little fish from the ponds to put in it. The really little fish are slowly dieing and being eaten by the bigger ones, which is ok if they would give the little guy a chance to die first before they start eating it. After all that was done, I looked over at the goldfish tank and decided to redo it as well since it was getting overtaken by algae. So that's what I have been doing all week and I have been enjoying it a lot.

The other day we all were discussing school and when we were starting and what we would be doing and I said to my mom that I thought I had learned enough and could I stop school. I expected her to say no, that I needed to keep going and get those few last credits that I need to "officially" graduate, but instead she agreed with me. You would expect that one would feel some sort of elation to be done with high school and one could go do whatever, but instead I feel the opposite. I am happy to be done yes, but I cant really describe the feeling except that I think I am growing up too fast or something lol. I do not have the money nor the desire to go to college so I am going to stay home and serve my family until Lord willing I get married myself.

Not much else has been happening and I haven't been thinking to deeply on anything so I guess there's nothing more to write. Except it was my sister's birthday yesterday and shes 7 now. 7 years ago that I had an argument with Elijah about who would wake up first and get to hold the new baby, 7 years went by pretty fast.

Heaven above is softer blue,
Earth around is sweeter green,
Something lives in every hue
Christless eyes have never seen.
Birds with gladder songs o'er flow,
Flowers with deeper beauty shine,
Since I know as now I know
I am His and He is mine.