pinocchio is a loser

Biology is difficult; I wouldn't consider it a thorn in the flesh, but its getting there. I am still on cells and I probably will still be on cells next week, and the next. Its just so confusing and intricate and mind boggling and amazing all at the same time. There is know way a soup that was simmering for billions of years could have made all this, it had to have required a Creator, and it did. I always tell Chelsea that it was in the beginning God, not in the beginning bang. That being said, I feel a bit better about the possibility if flunking the test, at least I will have learned a lot this module. But then you never know, I may pass with a good grade, who knows.

I really enjoy prayer meeting, its refreshing even though I have this block about praying out loud. By my self or with, like one person I'm fine but in a large group I sometimes feel as though I am repeating. When I was helping Judith this past weekend, we talked a while before we went to bed and we prayed together, it was good. Its so easy to talk to her because she listens so well, the two ears and one mouth thing come in a lot:) I had been thinking about this one thing all day and it was bothering me a little, so I told Judith about it and she gave me counsel and advice and then left it at that. With my mom, and I don't like this, but whenever we talk it almost always turns into an argument. There are to sides to every story, but sometimes to me it seems as though she is talking to a little child in her eyes instead of a teenager. Like I don't know anything and whatever she says (remember this is a conversation, not a correction) I have to do and I don't have a choice. I cant think through her advice and make decisions, I have to do it. I know I still have a lot to learn and mom is way older than me a and knows more, but sometimes, I don't know. Then this other thing with my attitude. My parents say that I have a bad attitude a lot when I talk to them, and even though I may not be thinking the way the say I am talking, I must be because thats the way I sound. They say that I'm just so used to talking that way that I do it with out thinking. Somehow I just don't agree with that completely. I would like to have a normal conversation with my parents with out an argument happening and with out anybody saying that I am being disrespectful or have a bad attitude, because that just shuts things down for me and I don't feel like talking any more after that. Something to pray about; hopefully I haven't gone to far in what I am writing but I have been wanting to write it all out for a long time and I was not sure if I should.

I told my dad I would only be a another 20 minutes and thats how long it took me to carefully write all that out.